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You taught me LOVE

2008-04-21T21:34:00.000-07:00

You taught me that love comes without a reason
It's a gift, no matter the season
Rain, shine, snowfall or hail
Your love for me never fails
Cuz you're the greatest teacher
Teaching me life's greatest feature

You answer me whenever I call
It doesn't matter how hard I fall
You lift me up with love and kindness
In your heart family's always first
I call you endearingly daddy
You've taught me how wonderful love can be

Your never-ending caresses flow
If this a game, you'll win the Olympic GOLD
It's hard to express my gratitude
To a father who showed us the magnitude
Of Love and daddy, with that
I thank you

Daddy we love you so much
It's hard to express it as such
Because you're the pillar of strength
You're just our superman
You taught me how to love
Like the caring God from above

There is a few men like you
And Jesus must have knew
That you were a special soul
To have and to hold
And you were perfect for us
Because we were perfect for you

Haiku

2008-04-18T10:22:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I just hate
When you look me in the face
And then fall asleep

Sometimes I just hate
The bitter broken pieces
On my clean clean sheets

Sometimes I just wish
You'd spend a little more time
To get to know me

Because it's just me
And I won't be here for long
You just don't know it

It hurts so so bad
When affections fall to dust
You are unworthy

Wasted my caress
Wasted my thoughtful prayers
You just fall asleep

Not the same anymore

2008-04-18T10:11:00.000-07:00

You don't touch the same;
Or kiss the same
Somehow the lion in you's been tamed
Or perhaps it's just me
Too blind to see
That I wasn't a PC

You don't hug the same,
Or caress the same,
Perhaps sympathy is the name of the game
And I should just wake up
Strut on out

You don't look at me the same
Or smile the same
Or kiss the same
Or return a gentle touch
Perhaps its just me
Expecting too much

And the sounds echo from the walls
Of someone else longing
But this longing will one day die out
Just as easily as it came about
The day when an opened door
To someone else's embrace

I wish you'd know the pain and the insanity
The injustice and the ignorance
The story behind the lost embrace
Behind this lost face
The bitter aftertaste, lost in the rat race

You don't wink the same
Or blink the same
Or smile the same
And it's just no longer my name
In this dirty dirty game

Because forever gives its chances
To the worthy candidates
And if you aren't too late
Maybe all these you'll salvage

Sheets

2008-02-25T08:42:00.000-08:00

Because a thousand miles away
Is the distance between
Though it seems only a breath away
Maybe one day the wolves will stay

In the crevices of your cold cold heat
Is where angels find solace
And though you don't see it now
It was one day be too late

The angels would have taken flight
The children would have matured
The petals would have withered
And it would be all too late

For teas will dry up
A warm heart will turn cold
And there will be no one left to..
dry these clean sheets anymore

Because it will be another chapter
Of years gone by
When you will remember the days fondly
When history repeats itself.

Bent Crooked

2008-02-21T00:42:00.000-08:00

I look over to the left, a bit off centre
There she sits, cross legged in banter
With some other girl I don''t know now
Each their own they both cry foul
I peer silently afraid my eyes would betray
The morals of mine all tattered and frayed

Just another tomorrow, some other today
But the happy beams of sunlight shy away
Premonition, Pandemonium, end of days
Earthquakes tsunamis, this vengeance we must pay
Apocalypse dawns on us come what may
Like it or not, that's the way

Watershed of tears, torrents of pain
Lash on the hungry soul - nothing to gain
This lonely planet is not ours for long
The transient calls of the nightingale's song
But we leave our worries for tomorrow
Postpone the dreaded feet's crow

Why do we cry when crying does no good
It won't help us breathe or give us food
These useless rivers of misery
Shackled and chained, dying to be free
From the one thing we love that hold us down
Perhaps all the world's a stage and we, but clowns

2 minutes too late

2008-02-17T09:35:00.000-08:00

I would have left no footprints
No trace - hell it's a ratrace

You would not have seen me disappear
Not for a year

It must have been completely silent
The speakers burnt

You would not but feel the skin
Anymore within

Because the voice of reason is no friend
What's broken we cannot mend

And all the sorries will do no more good
Ashes left from burnt wood

2 minutes too late -- I'm sorry

Lost Cause

2008-02-17T09:15:00.000-08:00

It's a lost cause as I lay beside a rock
Lost in a deserted island, the vultures mock
I roll over belly up trying to entice
It was just not worth it, this life
The snores from the caves bellow
It is I, the unfortunate fellow

Because they don't want you
You're not good enough too
Neglected and left all alone
Soul sapped and dried to the bone
Because he doesn't understand or listens
Maybe one day the tide will turn

This land a shadow of its once glory
Each man has his own tale - his own story
The bellowing of wind only get louder
Deep within it makes me ponder
That this is a lost battle, a lost cause
I'll just leave it to another coin toss

Because things have changed unlike the past
Perhaps it was I the fool who think it'll last
Tarry for a second - all this so transcient
Thin and fragile like sheets of aluminium
The winds blow the leaves away
But I'll do my raking another day

He tosses and turns all the while unalarmed
While in my mind the thoughts swarm
To another place in the distant future
Perhaps where men were born with 24 ears
Each for an hour to listen to our nothings
Then that day there will be no loss of wedding rings

Torn

2008-02-14T16:33:00.000-08:00

Torn - what a pretty word that trickles
Off the tongue, like honey suckles
But in reality, its being pulled apart
By unseen forces, they tear and cut

One's already in the glass jar
The other dangling below the bar
In the same vein one's struggle
Is another one's gain

I stare beyond the ceiling
Beyond the tears of porcelain
Because being torn is much more than
Grinding boulders to finely grained sand

How do I lift you up in my too small palm
As the undertaker carries you off to embalm
Your lifeless body in the cold cold room
To feel guilty it was I that caused your doom

But I'm sorry it's all too late
Call me stupid, silly or fake
Perhaps I'm just loch nest monster
Lost at the bottom of Scotland's lake

I wish I could pull you out
But your dreams all shattered and visions clout
Block out my screams of assistance
To your heart lost in the distance

May you find the happiness you deserve

Someone else's toxic

2008-01-10T01:07:00.000-08:00

Like strings of silken pearls,
The words roll out, the flag unfurls
They cannot be retrieved,
Nor minced or sieved
Like a ripple across the heart
To stomach the words, the hardest part

The sun catcher dusty and forgotten
Mint condition nothing broken
Except it's heart, cold and lifeless
Waiting for another cold blooded curse
Because it what it is, this neglected kiss
And when it's gone then you'll start to miss

My heart's ringing of a phantom pain
One the surface fine but nothing's the same
Because you eyes have turned cold
And every stare has a story to be told
But I don't want to ask anymore
There's no reason for tears to more

Not today, not ever

Of Raindrops and Broken Umbrellas

2008-01-07T23:59:00.000-08:00

Because things of the old will never be good enough
It tumbles and dries - all rough and tough
The shadows of yonder recede into the stiffled laughs
My hands bleed from the tightened cuffs

It goes through the hammer anvil and stirrup
But not once do the sounds echo - or even ever register
The blue liquid overspills the borders of the cup
Maybe I wish them away, sweep them under

And so the salt dries on the sand bank
The sea weeds dead, the grime settled and sank
The water seems clear, almost crystal like a smile
But maybe only for that while...

Maybe all I was asking for were words far too taboo
Maybe in my mind I was scared of hearing them too
To plead and ask for another breath
Is there anything to give - anything left

We look but don't see
We talk but never perceive
The invisible tears and broken walls
The fateful day the Berlin falls

Of raindrops and broken umbrellas
Of broken bicycles and catastrophized cars
Mangled in the ruins of a tomorrow just a minute away
Again I hear the all too familiar beep

... and all over again drift off to sleep ...

My Very Own Wonderland

2007-12-08T01:36:00.001-08:00

To have lost the most precious thing,
But to have found another
Was the trade of worth this inkling
That maybe through loss we find solace
From the depths of the now broken curse

So it seems to me the journey is new
Many trod down, but to survive, a few
And I look around at all the carcasses
This fate, some have had it worst
But was it really worth the heartache

Maybe the most precious thing has been lost
And I have to fool myself of a noble cause
To continue to walk down this road
And the tales of life slowly unfold
To eyes that have not seen the glitteratti

And I look at you and wonder if one day
Maybe I'll look back from the podium below
And point like the others, and reminisce
The story that had long gone cold
And lost to another polished diamond

Then I look down and tell myself
It was all worth it if for that moment
I experienced my very own fairytale
In my very own wonderland
Where Alice never sheds a tear...

Velcro

2007-12-04T03:39:00.000-08:00

The water drips down,
Each patient for its turn;
Each owning that very second
Each with that moment to shine

I can only stare
With eyes wide open
Sucking in the moment
Into the abysses of my soul

Something I thought happened to someone else
Fell right into my arms
Onto my lap
And actually sat still, not squirming
I pinch myself

Then I think it's a dream
I pinch myself harder
Because this cannot be true
Nothing ever is so perfect
As perfect as you

So I stare at the star sprinkled skies
Watching the fairies fly
A shooting star falls
Yet another heart is broken
And I am angry I am fragile

The is something about the "we"
It scares the hell out me
Because 2 can be broken
Or ripped apart
As easily as they can be velcro-ed

Isn't it all but velcro
Comes loose when pulled apart
The transcience of the moment
The belonging that is no more yours
Whether or not you like it

I felt it once, I returned it once
We're even now
And so I find myself velcro-ed
Once again to the very thing I fear
Could once again rip this fragile being apart

Wholy Holy Matrimony

2007-12-04T03:27:00.000-08:00

I count them on my right hand
Then move on to my left
Hardly sufficient, there's more than 10
I try to understand that it isn't theft
Of one's time, money and emotions

Every guy seems to be on his knee
Every girl swoons in the white white gown
Now, no not me, later - perhaps, maybe
Doesn't it just freak you out,
No i don't smile, it makes me frown

Under one roof, 24/7
It's just part and parcel of growing up
And no I don't think it'll be heaven
No, not me, siree, not yet
But all about love, it's hardly even that

Nonetheless, big up for you
For daring to leap blindfolded - almost
One day maybe I'll be like that too
But for now I'd rather boast
About my very carefree life, thank you

Be right back

2007-11-23T04:49:00.000-08:00

I'm reconstructing the face of some bugger...